Morning Pages | 31 October 2023
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In this morning's pages, I found myself asking whether I have the courage to lead as Master of my Masonic Lodge in the way that I feel I ought to in my heart. Is it really a wise move to consider delivering a talk on my journey through alcoholism and into recovery? It feels a bit like a crossroads, although perhaps not quite, as I already broached the subject in front of a big audience at my installation. Except that I didn't speak as well as I had practised.
If I were to prepare something for the December meeting, it would be in front of a small audience, most of whom were at my installation, and many of whom disapprove. Perhaps I ought to pick a more suitable battleground. No - battle isn't the right word. It's not a battle. It's a story. If I think of it in terms of a story, I can craft it to have maximum emotional impact. The danger is that it might appear self-indulgent. I get the feeling that some of the older generation of lodge members think that way, but does that matter? It really shouldn't. But even if that is how they think, I could make it my mission to reach them with my storytelling It would be like bringing my YouTube and podcasting and AA speaking experience into another room, to a different audience.
Hmmmm. I dunno. Here's how it came out in my pages.
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I'm planning to edit my installation toast and publish it on my podcast feed, so if you'd like to hear it, go ahead and subscribe. It should drop later today. Here’s a link to the feed on Spotify, but just search for Quoth the Camser in your podcast app of choice and you’ll find it.
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